I Will

So weary was I,
that my eyes were blinded
and I could not see my way.

Trouble seemed to meet me at
the door, every single day.

Trials and tribulations escorted
me every where I went.

Until one day,
the darkness broke,
the storm was moved
and the pathway was made clear.

I heard the voice of thunder speak to me;
and no it was not a dream,
although it seemed.

I was wide awake in the midnight hour
when a voice spoke to me:

"Rise up, child, and walk with me. I am your
guide in the darkness. I will lighten your heavy
load. I will carry your burdens. I will calm your
fears. I will heal your wounds. I will ease your pain.
I will cover you. I will uplift you. I will comfort you.
I will never leave nor forsake you, because I love you."

And with that being said,
I felt a strong sense of peace come over me.
My heart was made glad and my soul rejoiced.
For the Lord our God has saved me,
and now I am free!

If Only

If I said I loved you,

would your heart be able to hear the words?

although I try to distance myself

from rejection, I can't help but be drawn to you

your soul whispers secrets to mine

only the wind can tell which direction

because both are oblivious

to one each others hidden conversations.

My imagination takes precedence

over reality sometimes, because

I am overwhelmed with what could be

or what might have been, but-

I have to check myself in the end.

And when I look into our eyes,

I see the love you have inside

and I wish it was mine.

To belong to you,

maybe that's too much to require or

maybe I'm trippin.

But what's so wrong with being in love?

Why are people so afraid of it?

Love will never hurt you yes, I know, sometimes people do.

It may be a risk, but when with benefits

Do you ever feel lonely?

If so, remember me.

I'll always be here.

Let love conquer your fears.

When it knocks, let it in

and let love begin.

Yeah...well

Sometimes in life, we wonder what might have been or what would have happened differently if we chose to take another path than the one we picked. I find myself doing that daily. I have to remind myself that I am human and being in this 'flesh' makes you prone to sin and making mistakes. But, that really does not comfort me at all. Perhaps it is because I expect myself to be perfect and never fail in anything that I do. It could be that I am too hard on myself, but sometimes you have to be or you will never accomplish anything. People often try to encourage you. I say 'try' because it is so effortless. You get tired of hearing, 'It will get better' or 'It will work out'. My question is, Will it? When? How? They don't have a firm answer for that. So, I'm still searching...

Campbell Soup-Part 2

HE FINE, BUT HE DON'T KNOW IT
HE SENSITIVE, BUT HE DON'T SHOW IT
LAID BACK BROTHER WITH INTELLIGENT COMPOSURE
NOT ORDINARY BECAUSE THE WAY HE LOVE IS EXTRADINARY NEVER PLACES HIS LADY AS SECONDARY
DON'T LIKE TO FIGHT BUT HE WILL IF HE HAS TO
BECAUSE HE KNOWS A MAN HAS TO DO WHAT HE HAS TO
HE WOULDN'T DISRESPECT A WOMAN
CUZ HE REMEMBERS WHAT HIS MAMA TAUGHT HIM
DADDY WASN'T AROUND BUT HE STILL STANDS STRONG
NOT BOOK SMART BUT HE KNOWS RIGHT FROM WRONG
BLUE JEANS AND A WHITE TEE HAIR BRAIDED AND A GOAL TEE TATTOOS AND A DOO RAG
BOOTS OR TENNIS SHOES
BUT HE CAN STILL WEAR A SUIT AND TIE
MANY GIRLS FEELING HIM
SO HE MAY BE A PLAYER
HE DOESN'T MEAN TO BE A HEART SLAYER
BUT HIS DEMEANOR HAS MANY LAYERS

Thinking Out Loud

It is so hard at times to cope with everyday life when no one understands you.
People's opinions of you are prejudged assumptions with no foundation of actuality.
what's even harder is being in a relationship with these charcateristics
everyday is a constant struggle.
You ask the Lord to help you make thru the day . Then you have to pray that same prayer every single day without missing a beat because the moment you do, ugly rears it's head at the most inconvenient time.
You keep asking yourself 'why do I have to endure this pain?'
but why not? Others have before you .
You look for solutions, only to realize that you can't fix it yourself.
every time you make the attempt, you just mess things up further
when will this end?
You begin to believe it's karma for some wrong you've done and over looked or forgotten.
Others get away with their sins and celebrate, or so it seems.
You can forget going to someone for advise or wisdom, because you can't trust anyone.
If you let too many know your personal affairs, it will become the gossip during Sunday's dinner and ,then, how can you trust the words of those who are just as messed up and hurt as you?
None of us are really in a position to be handing remedies to life's mishaps, get the log out of your own eye first.

It Ain't Nothing

It ain't nothing for me to love you,
I've been doing that for some time now.
People criticize because they don't understand why I'm holding on.
If they were me, then they could see where I'm coming from.
Loving you makes my heart glad,
and sometimes I don't understand it myself.
It was so sudden and unexpected, but I needed it.
I've been broken hearted for so long.
Nobody knows what I've been through the pain I've endured or the obstacles I've encountered.
I just want my soul to mend.
Is that a crime?
Boy, you don't understand.
When I looked into your big brown eyes,
you made my heart melt like ice cream over a fire .
And ever since that day I've fallen in love.
With you is where I find myself, in my dreams, not wanting to wake up.
Because I don't want to be disappointed by reality.
My mind is spinning with thoughts that I can't contain any longer.
With each passing day, I'm grow more fonder than in the beginning.
The love I have for you is infinite........ because there is no ending.

God Changed His Plans

I once was weary,
my heart was troubled,
confusion consumed my mind.
I knew not which way to go, or which direction to turn,
I was lost in the wilderness of the sinful world,

But God changed the plans.

At times it seemed my trouble had no apparent end,
And good works were scarecly seen.
Love did not welcome me
and kindness was seldom found.
Faith did not know my name,
so doubt made a home in my mind.

But God changed His plans.