Friday, October 23, 2009

Thinking Out Loud

It is so hard at times to cope with everyday life when no one understands you.
People's opinions of you are prejudged assumptions with no foundation of actuality.
what's even harder is being in a relationship with these charcateristics
everyday is a constant struggle.
You ask the Lord to help you make thru the day . Then you have to pray that same prayer every single day without missing a beat because the moment you do, ugly rears it's head at the most inconvenient time.
You keep asking yourself 'why do I have to endure this pain?'
but why not? Others have before you .
You look for solutions, only to realize that you can't fix it yourself.
every time you make the attempt, you just mess things up further
when will this end?
You begin to believe it's karma for some wrong you've done and over looked or forgotten.
Others get away with their sins and celebrate, or so it seems.
You can forget going to someone for advise or wisdom, because you can't trust anyone.
If you let too many know your personal affairs, it will become the gossip during Sunday's dinner and ,then, how can you trust the words of those who are just as messed up and hurt as you?
None of us are really in a position to be handing remedies to life's mishaps, get the log out of your own eye first.

Monday, October 19, 2009

It Ain't Nothing

It ain't nothing for me to love you,
I've been doing that for some time now.
People criticize because they don't understand why I'm holding on.
If they were me, then they could see where I'm coming from.
Loving you makes my heart glad,
and sometimes I don't understand it myself.
It was so sudden and unexpected, but I needed it.
I've been broken hearted for so long.
Nobody knows what I've been through the pain I've endured or the obstacles I've encountered.
I just want my soul to mend.
Is that a crime?
Boy, you don't understand.
When I looked into your big brown eyes,
you made my heart melt like ice cream over a fire .
And ever since that day I've fallen in love.
With you is where I find myself, in my dreams, not wanting to wake up.
Because I don't want to be disappointed by reality.
My mind is spinning with thoughts that I can't contain any longer.
With each passing day, I'm grow more fonder than in the beginning.
The love I have for you is infinite........ because there is no ending.