Poetictonez

I have to constantly remind myself that some people are NOT worth me getting out of character for. It doesn’t matter who they are, what they are doing or what they may have said… they are not worth a reaction from me. Yes, it is easier said than to do. It takes practice, self-discipline and mental reminders not to give in to the negativity and stupidity of others. If find myself always having to correct myself or repent because of my words, thoughts or actions regarding how others make me feel. Sometimes I am so angry! I feel hatred in my heart. But, I know that isn’t right behavior. I am sure I am not alone with this struggle. All I can say is, it takes patience and effort on a daily basis to overcome and enter into a place of peace where you no longer react in a destructive manner, even though it may seem justified at the time. We have to remember that EVERYONE will be held accountable for their words, thoughts and actions ALONE. Therefore, stay in prayer and govern thyself according...

Recently I made the statement “black people are the only race that doesn’t unite.” I know a few people disagreed with me. For the ones who disagree, let me elaborate. I still stand by what I said. However, when I made that statement, what I was referring to was when things are NEGATIVE or BAD. The only time we are known to unite is when we feel we’ve been wronged or some sort of injustice has been imposed. Just as so many of us only pray to God when things are bad and forget about Him when things are good. For example, Trayvon Martin and Michael Brown, we protested together (but also tore up our own communities). Why does something horrific have to happen for us to unite? How come we don’t unite when things are going well? You may say we do. But, how often? Do we publicize it? Do we talk about it? Do we share it? I reflected on some of the other cultures, such as Caucasians, Asians and Hispanics. Can we, as black people, honestly say we are as united as some of the other cultures and/o...

I’m confused, Maybe I miscalculated somewhere along the way Thinking I had it all figured out When in reality I was subtracting instead of adding Dividing when I should have been multiplying Decreasing where I should have increased My love for you. Somehow I misjudged what it is you wanted And transformed into something you didn’t want… Or even need. I fathom we all lose our way on the journey through relationship valley becoming lost in the steep hills and the slopes of the mountain tops I got lost. Desperately searching for the pathway to get back to your heart Am I too far gone? Playing finders keepers with your heart Till death do us part, where do I start? The staircase to where it all began. Seems so far off in the distance, as I keep trying to find it. I don’t want to become weary, but I’m concerned. What lessons have we learned? The sacrifices love makes on a daily basis As our own personal wants and desires gets in the way. What we need and what we re...

Dear Tupac Amaru Shakur, I was never afforded the opportunity to have met you, but yet I feel like in my heart, I have. So much I would have loved to know about you, so many questions I would have wanted to ask. The thoughts that occupied your brain, the dreams you wanted to accomplish, but you were robbed of that opportunity so prematurely. Somehow I feel like you wanted to change your life. Was it at a moment too late? I wonder if you spoke to God, repented of your sins? I often wonder what you thought about after being shot the second time. Would you have made a different decision? I imagine you still here. I wonder how different would your life would be now. Would you still be a spitting dope lyrics on the mic and stage, or on the big screen doing movies, possibly creating your own behind the scenes? Would you have settled down and fathered a few kids, who had your eyes and outgoing personality, your ambition and your brave heart? Would you still drink Hennessy? Lol. Would you be ...

Sitting here looking at my phone Missed calls and text messages, I ignore them all, I can’t figure out my mind, The jumbled thoughts, the plans, the confusion He put his love on pause, I don’t understand the hesitation, We’ve both been hurt by love before, Once, twice, three times, maybe four. Heartbreak has hardened our hearts once more, We weren’t searching for love, but it found us It stumbled into our pathway boarding life’s highway It struggled day by day, in hopes to find a little lead way But give love an inch, it wants to travel a mile, Love ain’t got us like that, our hearts are in denial Stop, hold up, wait a minute……. Pause We didn’t ask for this, nor did we inquire about it The expiration date on love has expired, no progress transpired. You can’t come in, you’re not welcomed here, Love took advantage of us once, so now we fear His heart wears a shield, my heart protected by armour Stop, hold on, wait a minute… Pause Love has no honor...