Poetictonez

Dear Tupac Amaru Shakur, I was never afforded the opportunity to have met you, but yet I feel like in my heart, I have. So much I would have loved to know about you, so many questions I would have wanted to ask. The thoughts that occupied your brain, the dreams you wanted to accomplish, but you were robbed of that opportunity so prematurely. Somehow I feel like you wanted to change your life. Was it at a moment too late? I wonder if you spoke to God, repented of your sins? I often wonder what you thought about after being shot the second time. Would you have made a different decision? I imagine you still here. I wonder how different would your life would be now. Would you still be a spitting dope lyrics on the mic and stage, or on the big screen doing movies, possibly creating your own behind the scenes? Would you have settled down and fathered a few kids, who had your eyes and outgoing personality, your ambition and your brave heart? Would you still drink Hennessy? Lol. Would you be ...

Sitting here looking at my phone Missed calls and text messages, I ignore them all, I can’t figure out my mind, The jumbled thoughts, the plans, the confusion He put his love on pause, I don’t understand the hesitation, We’ve both been hurt by love before, Once, twice, three times, maybe four. Heartbreak has hardened our hearts once more, We weren’t searching for love, but it found us It stumbled into our pathway boarding life’s highway It struggled day by day, in hopes to find a little lead way But give love an inch, it wants to travel a mile, Love ain’t got us like that, our hearts are in denial Stop, hold up, wait a minute……. Pause We didn’t ask for this, nor did we inquire about it The expiration date on love has expired, no progress transpired. You can’t come in, you’re not welcomed here, Love took advantage of us once, so now we fear His heart wears a shield, my heart protected by armour Stop, hold on, wait a minute… Pause Love has no honor...

He said he couldn’t live without me, Man, my heart smiled so big No one could ever measure that amount He makes me feel like no other Ain’t no better love that what he got My mind won’t let me forget him Days pass by, daylight turns into night But his love never waivers from my heart He’s gone, but not far He’ll be back soon We are supposed to be together He wouldn’t leave me long Every breath I breath is for him He doesn’t know it I’m making preparations to be reunited with my love Will he be waiting for me? I can’t wait to feel his love all around me Wrapped up like a winter’s coat Mmm, I can’t wait Patience don’t leave me now I’m fragile I imagine his touch, his heartbeat, his soul He’ll be back soon He’s not gone too far My heart waits for him I breath him, my soul, my love Will be back soon.

Alone in this world, So cold, Walking blindfold into the darkness Never to see what lies ahead, Consumed with hurt and guilt, Of past love and cries that were left unheard. Existence is escaping me slowly, Unsure of how to proceed, Ignorant to what happiness is, Shielded by confusion and pain. The world seems so cold, To my wants and needs, The adversary waits, To hunt and to feed. On the weary hearts of those, Orphaned by circumstance And the forgotten ones, Left behind in the swine, Toiled in the coils of deceit Resting on a web of lies, Cold, cold is the world, To my uncaring eyes….

In the calm, still of the night, He waits for me..... But not to the element of surprise. His intent is to protect me from harm and danger, both seen and unseen. But I am oblivious to His outreached hand, so alone I continue to stand. Naked to the brutal assaults of the world, like a new born baby, ignorant to knowledge. He waits for me, Longing for me to call out to Him, not only when I've fallen down with no strength to get up on my own but when I'm taking a ride on cloud nine and feel like I'm floating in the sky. He waits for my in a quiet place, and welcomes me into His home.