PoeticTonez

I Am Broken

2010-12-12T06:38:00.000-08:00

I've been broken into many pieces,
somewhat like a puzzle,
but not easily reconstructed,
not enough time to understand me.

Tears keep falling down my face,
leaving stains that I cannot remove,
a trail that leads to a sorrowful place,
only to find myself there alone.

I am broken,
never to be put back in place,
those around me have no clue,
they continue to walk past me,
oblivious to the scene.

What will it take to fix the pain,
how long will the hurt linger,
for a day, or maybe a week?
to answer this seems unbeknown st to me.

For I am easily broken,
into a million little pieces,
so be careful where you step,
one mistake can have a lifetime of hurt
and an eternity of pain.

Broken, broken, so am I,
no one can see the inner beauty,
because they only focus on the blemish.
Broken, broken, so am I,
never to be put back together again.

Guilding Light

2010-02-17T18:33:00.000-08:00

He waits for me in the garden,
where the colors of a rainbow bloom.
He searches for me in my hidden place,
when the sun shines brightly at noon.
His spirit guides me through the maze,
He answers my forbidden questions.
He prepares a place for me,
and equips me for life's lessons.
He softens my hardened heart,
and dries up my continuous tears.
He keeps me safe from harms way,
while his presence erases my fears.
He welcomes me into his home,
and places no criticism on me,
He loves me for who I am,
and gives me freedom to let me be.

Misplaced

2010-01-13T16:26:00.000-08:00

They say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder,
but when I look into the mirror, that is not what I see.

The reflection resembles scars of sorrow and pain,
a fragile heart being broken repeatedly,
a lonely soul seeking refuge, but
never finding it.

Being isolated in this cruel world,
trying to distinguish between what is
right or wrong, acceptable and disgraced,
and what road to travel this tiresome journey on.

Oblivious to what others find comforting,
in this ungodly world of sinners,
as our being perishes into nonexistent dust.

Somehow the grass outside is blanketed by the
morning dew, I'm confused as to why the
the world continues it's rotation on a broken axle.

Never knowing the trip is about to abruptly end,
and left at a stand still like broken glass, or
misplaced puzzle pieces with no where to belong.

Restless souls roaming the polluted air,
seeking a resting place for their iniquities,
afraid to let go and let God
challenge their battles for them.

Yearning to be triumphant,
yet lacking knowledge, are we united as one,
spread out like a wonderful feast
at the table of unrighteousness.

When will the hopeless turn away from their wicked ways
and walk into the blessed land,
that was set aside for the peacemakers
to be free at last from the shackles of bondage.

Unwelcomed thoughts of love and prosperity
being lead astray by the mirage of failure
and deceit,
Why are we such fools to the enemy's trickery?

Happiness ever seeking a place to dwell in,
often miscalculated and misunderstood,
pushed away with our stony hearts,
to be misplaced like lost, loose change.

Merry-Go-Round

2010-01-02T14:05:00.000-08:00

I closed my eyes and tried to remember,
but for the sake of me I could not.
I pondered on it all night,
repetitiously I searched my thoughts.

And just when I believed I found it,
once more I was to be fooled.
It wasn't the real thing,
so quickly it disappeared without a clue.

This game I'm tired of playing,
it's making me a loser.
So many years have passed me by,
I wish I would have figured it out sooner.

Deception knocking at my door,
I wonder if I dare answer?
Don't want to be captured like a prisoner,
to again be abused by my master.

The solutions lie within me,
I hold the key the lock.
When I choose to exit the stage,
this merry-go-round ride will stop.

True Love

2009-12-18T18:01:00.000-08:00

I can feel him,
when I close my eyes,
for his heart speaks to me.
In his poetry,
in his rhyme,
in his song,
in my mind.

Like a beautiful flower
beginning to bloom for the first time,
is how deeply I want to love him,
unconditionally,
inside and out,
no restrictions,
no limits.

His words embrace me like heaven's clouds,
his voice caresses me,
so tender like a first kiss,
ever so carefully,
sincere and secure.

He fills my day with joy
with just the slightest thought of him,
I am overwhelmed with emotion,
I desire him,
I admire him,
I love him.

He does not know
the power he possesses,
for he dwells in humility,
kindness and positivity.
He uplifts me.

Such a gentleman is he,
he protects my heart with honor.
So freely he shares his world with me
I know not of loneliness
but of love and tranquility.

He will never understand the magnitude
of his influence in my life
because he doesn't look for praise
or recognition.

He just is
and he just does,
has always been
and always was
my first and my only
true love.

Love Abides

2009-12-12T15:21:00.000-08:00

Love abides by no rules,
it's depth is endless,
it's plight is high,
it expects nothing
and criticizes not.

It appears like a thief in the night,
but harm it does not know.
It's aim is comfort the lost
and forgotten.

Sometimes it is misunderstood
because at times it is stern,
strong and firm.

It's a free spirit
and cannot be regulated,
by thoughts or actions.
It owns the right to
it's destination and direction.

It can't be bought or sold,
and not to be defined as young or old.
It holds it's own self worth.

Love abides by no rules,
stipulations or restrictions.
It creates it's own path
Like water to a plant.
if nurtured, it will last.

Peaceful Calming

2009-11-23T18:17:00.000-08:00

His love flows into my valley
his voice calms the storm
he comforts me with his mind
and embraces me with his soul

I often think of him
like dew falling upon the grass
my heart remembers his melodies
as the birds sing a verse to our song

Though I cry out for him
he does not hear me
from deep in the forest
he is hidden from me

I seek to find him
I yearn to feel his touch
his strength can move a mountain
with patience in one breath

I look up to the sky
and imagine a place unknown
to only he and I
surely his pace will guide me

As we embark this journey
the destination unbeknown st
within the peace of the day
until the still of the night

Love's Parade

2009-11-21T18:08:00.000-08:00

I can hear your heart talking to me,
but still I wonder.

If I am worthy of your embrace,
for your love I cannot replace.

I remember when we connected,
our songs united at one moment,
in unison with the whispers of the world.

I found you,
your soul found mine
and we became one.

Or have I only imagined that?
My mind is clear,
my heart is not confused.

I love you.

You loved me from an unknown place
and I constantly search to be united.
Will you welcome me in?

Don't push me away, I can't bear it.

For so long I've waited to be yours,
was I so transparent in my plight?
Because I plan to win the uphill fight.

Our love welcomes the night
and celebrates in the dawn,
day by day.

We have reached our mountain together,
our love rains down into the valley,
the fog has cleared, the pathway is near,
now that we let loves parade in.

What Makes a Woman Bitter

2009-11-17T18:51:00.000-08:00

I get up every morning to a job where I don't feel appreciated

working like a slave to make the man's pocket larger

But I constantly have holes in mine.......

Come home to a house that needs to be cleaned

dishes that need to be washed and kids that need to be fed

My body is tired and my feet ache

But now is not the time for a break.........

Feeling like I'm being taken for granted

it seems as though all I do for others

is expected from them

but what has anyone done for me?

Constant complaining, finger-pointing and criticizing

no one seeing my point of view on anything

and you wonder why I'm cranky?

Do I really need to make it plain or waste my time explaining?

Are you so blind that you cannot see,

or you are only conscious to your own needs?

People are only concerned with self

and with little regard of anything or anyone else.

I Will

2009-11-15T15:55:00.000-08:00

So weary was I,
that my eyes were blinded
and I could not see my way.

Trouble seemed to meet me at
the door, every single day.

Trials and tribulations escorted
me every where I went.

Until one day,
the darkness broke,
the storm was moved
and the pathway was made clear.

I heard the voice of thunder speak to me;
and no it was not a dream,
although it seemed.

I was wide awake in the midnight hour
when a voice spoke to me:

"Rise up, child, and walk with me. I am your
guide in the darkness. I will lighten your heavy
load. I will carry your burdens. I will calm your
fears. I will heal your wounds. I will ease your pain.
I will cover you. I will uplift you. I will comfort you.
I will never leave nor forsake you, because I love you."

And with that being said,
I felt a strong sense of peace come over me.
My heart was made glad and my soul rejoiced.
For the Lord our God has saved me,
and now I am free!

If Only

2009-11-07T20:39:00.000-08:00

If I said I loved you,

would your heart be able to hear the words?

although I try to distance myself

from rejection, I can't help but be drawn to you

your soul whispers secrets to mine

only the wind can tell which direction

because both are oblivious

to one each others hidden conversations.

My imagination takes precedence

over reality sometimes, because

I am overwhelmed with what could be

or what might have been, but-

I have to check myself in the end.

And when I look into our eyes,

I see the love you have inside

and I wish it was mine.

To belong to you,

maybe that's too much to require or

maybe I'm trippin.

But what's so wrong with being in love?

Why are people so afraid of it?

Love will never hurt you yes, I know, sometimes people do.

It may be a risk, but when with benefits

Do you ever feel lonely?

If so, remember me.

I'll always be here.

Let love conquer your fears.

When it knocks, let it in

and let love begin.

Campbell Soup-Part 2

2009-11-06T20:40:00.000-08:00

HE FINE, BUT HE DON'T KNOW IT
HE SENSITIVE, BUT HE DON'T SHOW IT
LAID BACK BROTHER WITH INTELLIGENT COMPOSURE
NOT ORDINARY BECAUSE THE WAY HE LOVE IS EXTRADINARY NEVER PLACES HIS LADY AS SECONDARY
DON'T LIKE TO FIGHT BUT HE WILL IF HE HAS TO
BECAUSE HE KNOWS A MAN HAS TO DO WHAT HE HAS TO
HE WOULDN'T DISRESPECT A WOMAN
CUZ HE REMEMBERS WHAT HIS MAMA TAUGHT HIM
DADDY WASN'T AROUND BUT HE STILL STANDS STRONG
NOT BOOK SMART BUT HE KNOWS RIGHT FROM WRONG
BLUE JEANS AND A WHITE TEE HAIR BRAIDED AND A GOAL TEE TATTOOS AND A DOO RAG
BOOTS OR TENNIS SHOES
BUT HE CAN STILL WEAR A SUIT AND TIE
MANY GIRLS FEELING HIM
SO HE MAY BE A PLAYER
HE DOESN'T MEAN TO BE A HEART SLAYER
BUT HIS DEMEANOR HAS MANY LAYERS

Thinking Out Loud

2009-10-23T16:32:00.000-07:00

It is so hard at times to cope with everyday life when no one understands you.
People's opinions of you are prejudged assumptions with no foundation of actuality.
what's even harder is being in a relationship with these charcateristics
everyday is a constant struggle.
You ask the Lord to help you make thru the day . Then you have to pray that same prayer every single day without missing a beat because the moment you do, ugly rears it's head at the most inconvenient time.
You keep asking yourself 'why do I have to endure this pain?'
but why not? Others have before you .
You look for solutions, only to realize that you can't fix it yourself.
every time you make the attempt, you just mess things up further
when will this end?
You begin to believe it's karma for some wrong you've done and over looked or forgotten.
Others get away with their sins and celebrate, or so it seems.
You can forget going to someone for advise or wisdom, because you can't trust anyone.
If you let too many know your personal affairs, it will become the gossip during Sunday's dinner and ,then, how can you trust the words of those who are just as messed up and hurt as you?
None of us are really in a position to be handing remedies to life's mishaps, get the log out of your own eye first.

It Ain't Nothing

2009-10-19T15:53:00.000-07:00

It ain't nothing for me to love you,
I've been doing that for some time now.
People criticize because they don't understand why I'm holding on.
If they were me, then they could see where I'm coming from.
Loving you makes my heart glad,
and sometimes I don't understand it myself.
It was so sudden and unexpected, but I needed it.
I've been broken hearted for so long.
Nobody knows what I've been through the pain I've endured or the obstacles I've encountered.
I just want my soul to mend.
Is that a crime?
Boy, you don't understand.
When I looked into your big brown eyes,
you made my heart melt like ice cream over a fire .
And ever since that day I've fallen in love.
With you is where I find myself, in my dreams, not wanting to wake up.
Because I don't want to be disappointed by reality.
My mind is spinning with thoughts that I can't contain any longer.
With each passing day, I'm grow more fonder than in the beginning.
The love I have for you is infinite........ because there is no ending.

God Changed His Plans

2009-09-04T19:18:00.000-07:00

I once was weary,
my heart was troubled,
confusion consumed my mind.
I knew not which way to go, or which direction to turn,
I was lost in the wilderness of the sinful world,

But God changed the plans.

At times it seemed my trouble had no apparent end,
And good works were scarcely seen.
Love did not welcome me
and kindness was seldom found.
Faith did not know my name,
so doubt made a home in my mind.

But God changed His plans.

I walked alone
on the forbidden path
no clue as to which way to go
I was headed for destruction
with a blindfold covering my eyes,

But God changed his plans.

Until one day I woke up
the darkness of the night
and walked into the light
I turned away from my life of sin

And allowed God to change the plan.

Young Girl

2009-06-23T15:15:00.000-07:00

young girl,
you don't have to wear pants so tight
or your skirt so short
Just to gain some attention.
Grown men approaching
and you are only fifteen,
but you forget to mention.
No father figure around
you're longing to be loved
so you sleep around
single parent home
you often feel alone
no one to turn to for guidance
because your mother works double shifts,
just to make ends meet,
you are free to roam the streets

young girl,
so beautiful you are
though you think you're not
self esteem is low
you start fights to release frustration
incarceration is your destination.
hanging out on the corner
dealers walking past
exchange what's in his hand for some cash

young girl,
don't waste your life away
due to misconception of reality
open your eyes
and see the beauty you possess is skin deep
your dreams can come true
if you believe in you,
you don't need others to.
You are able to change your destiny
by the path you take
ask the Lord for strength,
and the rest is up to you.

Campbell Soup

2009-06-15T20:47:00.000-07:00

Fine as aged wine,
dark skinned
light skinned
mustache
goal-tee
corn rolls
bald fade
baggy jeans
slacks
button-up shirt
suit, tie
white tee,
tennis shoes
Stacey Adams
fitted cap
Dob hat
pearly whites
gold cap
grill
gold chain
tattoos
boxer briefs
talks with slang,
yet has a college degree
and he's feeling me...
he licks his lips like his
name is Ladies Love
he's a rapper
or an R & B singer,
he's real laid back
smooth in his demeanor
thugged out
but intelligent
ladies man
but a one woman man
helps those in need when he can
much respect for his mama
so he treats his lady right
not a trouble maker
but not afraid to fight
Yes, the brother's fine
and he's mine
takes care of home
like he should
this Campbell Soup Brother
is mmm, mmm, good.....

Invisible Thought

2009-06-13T19:20:00.000-07:00

When I looked into his brown eyes,

I could see his soul

sketching a pathway to his heart

I decided then, this is where I want to be.

Him and me...

He comforts me

He embraces me

Because he loves me

And so do I, love he

The path we travel,

many obstacles we've crossed

when I fall,

he holds me up

and dusts me off

I encourage him

when he's feeling weak

I hold his hand

and let him lead

I know when to let him go

and know when he needs me

He keeps me close

but confident to let me be

We're strong togethor

even when we're apart.